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  • Celebrating Self-Publishers at Los Angeles Zine Fest

    Spotlight on Fellow Artists and Writers at LA Zine Fest

    Los Angeles Zine Fest Logo Made by Kenny Srivijittakar of Tiny Spendor

    Anjelica Colliard and I made the trek from Oakland to Los Angeles to join over 200 exhibitors at Los Angeles Zine Fest last weekend.  A huge reason why comic book artists and writers like myself exhibit is to meet other freaks like ourselves because, goddamn, writing and making comics is lonely as hell as you become more and more obsessive about your weird shit.

    It’s definitely a primal, psychological, find-your-tribe sort of pull that joins us at these events.  Holy shit, it is so nice to see everyone’s happy and relieved faces – realizing that they weren’t the only ones who were plugging along late at night or piecing together the funds to see their work through. But thank GOD, we torture ourselves in such a unique and productive way! Self-published literature and alternative comics are vital to share the stories that corporate America loves to ignore in this sick society.

    Thus, it is important for me to share the work of other artists who are making this same push.

    Los Angeles Zine Fest Comics 2016
    Come Find Out set up shop at table 141 on the first floor of The Majestic between Pensive Proletariat Press, based out of Bakersfield, CA and Angi Brzycki, who traded me her book, Love Letter for my Bill Murray: Axis of Love poster.  Before the crowds started pouring in, I took the chance to run around our ‘alley’ at LA Zine Fest and meet our neighbors.  Cheers to the beautiful human faces behind these alternative home-brewed publishers.

    Table 134 – Stumble on Tapes
    Table 135 – Carmen Monoxide
    Table 136 – Suicidal Goldfish
    Table 137 – Music We Hate & Your Unfriendly Neighbor
    Table 138 – PoP OOK!!
    Table 139 – Gracie CT
    Table 140 – Angi Brzycki
    Table 141 – COME FIND OUT
    Table 142 – Pensive Proletariat Press
    Table 143 – Not Shit: Skateboarding Zine
    Table 144 – Alma Rosa, Honda & Gloria Rivera

    Here, some of the zinesters respond to my question: What was your favorite part of LAZF and what were you most excited to exhibit?

    Stumble on Tapes

    Stumble on Tapes Music Videos LAZF
    Carmen Monoxide

    Suicidal Goldfish


    “The best part of LAZF was saying “hi” to many zinesters that I follow on Instagram and Tumblr. I was happy to meet the ladies that create Stumble on Tapes, because I truly love watching their YouTube videos with the cool musicians that they select for their acoustic sets. I was really excited to debut issue 9 of Suicidal Goldfish, because the front cover was a stencil.”

    Music We Hate & Your Unfriendly Neighbor

    PoP OOK!!


    “As always, the best part of the LA Zine Fest or any other zinefest is having the ability to meet people who share the same interests and goals that me and PopOok are generating…its amazing to find out how many people are interested in the things we do!! I don’t publish that often and the yearly zinefests also provide me with a deadline that allows me to push myself to get things done. 2. The most exciting thing i exhibited was the newest issue i just published!! i just released PopOok #3 and its the biggest and best yet!! ha! no, i’m really happy and so glad to share it with the world..each issue is an anthology that includes a lot of great art and music and i’m really proud of all the people involved!!”

    Gracie CT


    “The best part of LA Zine Fest: Truly all of it. I know that sounds cliche, but between how insane it was, to someone asking me to sign my business card, every minute of it was totally magickal.

    I was really excited to exhibit my brand new zine “worn as directed”, as well as my higher-end zines such as “this consciousness that is aware” and the “unusual photo zine”. Worn as Directed had been made only days previous and it was really well received. I’m going to be printing a screenprinted and letterpressed version next week. In terms of my other zines, it was just great to put out zines that I made during my undergraduate schooling at SFAI. They felt really personal to who I am and were also printed on really nice paper :^)”

    “Best part was the crowd….so many people. it was great to meet a bunch of people and find out what they are interested in.
    I was excited to about zucker fairey…although, i didn’t feel like people were that into them. i was away from my table but apparently someone that worked for Shepard Fairey came by and said something about it. I kind of wish I was there for that.”

    COME FIND OUT: Pure bliss from Sayuri, Anjelica, and the spirit of Krusty Wheatfield as we celebrate the release of Hot Magic, Come Find Out‘s 13th zine issue

    Pensive Proletariat Press


    My name is Andrew M. Timmerman. I write Radical Science Fiction, Poetry, and Essays. I have Schizophrenia and ADHD, so I write a lot about Mental Health. My monthly Zine, “Spaceships & Schizophrenia” is the culmination of those two components. You should check it out. On the first Blackstar LP, one of my favorite Rappers Talib Kweli exclaims, “Stop acting like a Bitch already, be a Visionary”. LA Zinefest was a big part of my doing precisely that. In doing so, I embraced the vulnerability and precarity that comes with any serious, worthwhile creative or intellectual endeavor. It was earnestly one of the best days of my life as well as one of the scariest. I met so many talented, wonderful people whom I admire deeply. I also forged what will surely be a lifelong bond with the friends who tagged along and assisted me. Pensive Proletariat Press is me printing the things that I want to. It’s modest but growing and LAZF was pivotal to that growth. Thus far it’s been only Zines and Chapbooks, but I have a few Book-length works I plan to release when my readership has grown a bit. I also have some collaborative projects in the work with friends and relatives. I’m also trying to convince a good friend to let me print her Poetry. has a lot of material to read as well as the webstore, check it out or don’t. I can’t wait for next year’s Festival.

    Not Shit: Skateboarding Zine

    Alma Rosa, Honda & Gloria Rivera



  • Moving my Art Practice to Oakland

    Hello family, friends, and supporters.  I moved to Oakland in the middle of May (2.5 months ago) from Los Angeles to develop my art projects and live with other creatively-minded people. I feel so much happiness in my heart now that I have moved here with the intention to carve out a nice little slice of life for myself.

    In turn, this move has meant radio silence on my art blog for the past two months.  Here’s what I’ve been working on in the recent months (excluding getting a great part-time J-O-B!):

    More Animal Brains

    In December of last year, I started researching open-source databases of neurological images from the University of Wisconsin, the National Museum of Health and Medicine and collected 16 photos of cross-coronal sections of various animal brains. I used these brain slides to make my Animal Brain series, in which I embed my abstract watercolor paintings into the unique shape of each brain.

    Homo sapien brain art

    I showed these brains at the RAW:Hollywood event in January 2015 and decided to open up an Etsy shop to get serious about selling my artwork.

    I sell my art and illustrations on Etsy

    I call my shop InnerStellar Art where I sell my Animal Brain prints and other illustrations. Selling these Animal Brains helped me keep my head above water during the time that I didn’t have a job, so I am ever-grateful to the people who bought the brains!  Definitely helped me from having to move back to LA.

    I’m currently collecting 20 more animal brains to add to this series to bring the total number of brains to 36. New Animal Brain prints will include the Yellow Mongoose, Domestic Dog, Platypus brains. Check back in a month for these new prints!

    Artwork for my Etsy Shop Banner

    Illustrating The Musical Melodyian Graphic Novel

    As always, I am chipping away at illustrating the Musical Melodyian comic book / graphic novel. But there’s been an interesting update since moving to the Bay Area: Since receiving funding from The Musical Melodyian Patreon page, all new pages will be in COLOR! View new Musical Melodyian comic pages here!

    Check out our pitch video and throw some $$$ our way so we can make more art, music, and comics.

    Designing my Shipping Container Home

    I applied for an artist residency last year in which resident artists live on a container ship for 27 days while it travels from Vancouver, Canada to Shanghai, China. This planted the idea of modular design and how it can (and did) alter the currents of world economies.

    When I first moved to Oakland in search of a place to live, a friend suggested a shipping container artist colony that existed somewhere near the industrial port of Oakland…Again, the shipping container motif!  I saw this as a sign to explore modular design on a larger scale and my role as an artist and creator in the world’s economy.

    Dream Shipping Container Home

    I became obsessed with the idea of building my own modular house and started making blueprints and small paper models of my dream shipping container home.

    Next step is to make a 3D model of my home and print it out! Stay tuned.


    I’ve never experienced so much joy in nurturing a garden.

    Art Girls in the Garden

    Here’s a list of the various fruits, vegetables, and flowers that are growing: Tomatoes, Tomatillos, Italian Basil, Thai Basil, Mint, Fava Beans, Parsley, Crookneck Squashes, Bok Choi, Red Leaf Lettuce, Romaine Lettuce, Arugula, Chamomile, Agave, Cucumbers, Sunflowers, Pumpkins, Melons, Persimmons, Zapotes, Apples, Spinach, Peppers, Shiso.

    You must be wondering: “Hmmm…that’s nice, but doesn’t it take a lot of water to upkeep a garden of this size? I mean isn’t California in a Drought!?!

    No worries. We got that covered with our hi-tech gray water bucket system! Booya.

    Gray Water Bucket Dance

    Making an Art Studio in the Garage

    My new place in Oakland has a great detached garage that my housemates and I have used as a makeshift print / comic / art making studio.  So far, the garage studio has some shelving and tables, but no storage space or dedicated hardware or printing spaces.

    Converted Garage Art Studio
    We have decided set our collective intention (and lay down the $$$) to convert this space into a dedicated art studio that is clean, organized, and conducive to art production!  So yesterday, I went on a great expedition to the fantastic and mystical Urban Ore to get some used cabinets and the not so fantastic or mystical Home Depot to gather some building materials.

    Rough Sketches for Converted Garage Art StudioStay tuned for more updates and before and after photos of our art studio.

    Scooter-ing around Fruitvale

    A Girl and her Scooter

    Yeah, that’s right.

  • AHA! Three Epiphanies in San Francisco

    I had the pleasure of participating in AHA last Thursday (March 19, 2015) with old friends and new friends in the heart of the Mission District of San Francisco at The Lab, where I demonstrated my harmonograph and 100 harmonographic drawings.  This experience reinvigorated my faith in art practice as a viable way to carve a path towards a kinder and more mindful future.

    VIDEO/PHOTO credit: Jared Scheib (#DRMA #realitysurf

    VIDEO/PHOTO credit: Jared Scheib (#DRMA #realitysurf

    AHA brought together artists to create a night of sound art, video art, performance art and visual art in a unique and collaborative way to meditate on the notion of epiphany.  Rather than organizing an event around an exhibition like traditional art shows, this event was the exhibition.

    This show was organized by (photo from left to right) Anjelica Colliard, Caity Ballister, Jim Jameth, Monique Islam, and Caitlyn Grams, a collective of creative and progressive Bay Area women who seek to illuminate emerging and underrepresented local artists.

    Photo credit: Monique Islam

    Photo credit: Monique Islam

    During the process of setting up, showing, and taking down our work (which was about 24 hours total), I thought a lot about the nature of permanence and transience in art practice and how all this adds up to moments of epiphany and action.

    I had three moments of epiphany after the end of the show.


    A day before the show, we realized that the AHA event had to revolve around the production for another art event on the following month — for a group show with the much more well-known artist, Ai Weiwei.  At the time, working around Ai Weiwei’s use of The Lab’s space was a huge headache and forced us to use the space in an unintended way.

    But WOW, us twenty-somethings with nothing more than a vision and a space showed our work where the world-renowned Ai Weiwei will show a few weeks later.  After the show, I did a little research on Ai Weiwei’s work.

    My first epiphany was brought about by looking at Ai Weiwei’s work: artists create important dialogues about society which have the potential to bring about real change. If you have any doubts about this bold assertion, please watch this documentary about Ai Weiwei. He is an inspiring artist and fearless human being.


    The AHA event and my trip as a whole to the Bay Area made me realize that I NEED to be in there to grow as an artist and business person. The City makes me feel alive, creative, and bold.  There is so much change happening in the Bay Area. It would be a shame to not be a part of it by staying in the hot hot heat of Los Angeles.

    During my trip, I experienced two very distinct groups of twenty-somethings: the struggling artists and the young urban professionals who unknowingly kick them out of San Francisco.  Just as a preface: I  don’t want to use this article to discuss the moral and social dilemmas of gentrification because there is so much already written about it.  Instead, as someone who identifies as both as an artist and a businessperson I have come to the realization that I need to think critically about my role in the Bay Area.  There’s always this dilemma between making money and pursuing creative projects.  But this time, I have a plan.

    That counts as an epiphany, right?  Now for action: Bay Area here I come!

    My Artist Friends and I

    Me and my freakshow artist friends. Photo taken by my yuppy friend, of course. Love you Kathryn!


    I have always instinctually known that the path of towards self-realization and success as an artist is difficult one.  I constantly hear advice like “Don’t be an artist, your life will suck” or “You are being so idealistic. You suck.” My advice to other artists is this: Ignore the advice and keep moving. Only you have your best interest in mind.
    VIDEO/PHOTO: Jared Scheib (#DRMA #realitysurf

    VIDEO/PHOTO credit: Jared Scheib (#DRMA #realitysurf

    The AHA! event was the first time that I saw all my black harmonographics displayed against a wall. I created 100 unique drawings with my harmonograph to do this.  As I looked up at that wall, covered in my drawings, I said to myself: “J., you’re one bad-ass bitch.”
    This third epiphany was the most profound.
    Art is important and you should never allow your self-worth to be dependent others’ opinions of your work. This is key. Write it down. Live by it. (But of course, also feel free to ignore this advice) We must survive through the negativity and slew of opinions and judgements that are haphazardly tossed our way to create a body of work that is genuine and relevant. We must keep moving forward. There is no other way.
    Black Harmonographics in San Francisco
    I am grateful to have shared my work at this unique and ambitious event with friends.Comment to let me know what you thought of my experience, epiphanies, and to connect with other artists. Love you!
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    AHA! Epiphanies in Art 2
    Red Lady #2 just doin' her thang.
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  • Aha! Epiphanies and Eureka Moments

    Still on the highest high from selling my illustrations at the Bill Murray Art Show this past Saturday at the Syrup Loft in Downtown Los Angeles, I am proud to announce my next art show at The Lab in San Francisco on Thursday, March 19.

    The Lab is a not-for-profit arts organization and performance space, located in San Francisco’s historic Redstone Building right next to the the 16th and Mission BART station.

    Art Lab in San Francisco

    I haven’t been to the Bay Area in a while so it’ll be good to get some fresh air, see old friends, meet new friends and collaborate on art projects.  Bay Area here I come!

    For the majority of 2014, I’ve participated in many Los Angeles art markets, but this is my real first art show of the new year. I am especially looking forward to collaborating with video and performance artists for a thoughtful one-night art event that revolves around the idea of epiphany.

    Epiphanies: regardless of your field, your background or general outlook on life, we all experience these powerful ‘AHA’ moments when that cliche light bulb turns on.  All complications fade away like a bad dream, allowing us to bask in the warm light of simplicity.  These moments of enlightenment are rare and fleeting and if you think about it, visual artists turn these epiphanies into tangible experiences.

    I had one of these moments about a year ago when I saw a harmonograph for the first time at the Inner City Arts.  I was awestruck, hypnotized.  I thought to myself: “What a perfectly beautiful and simple way to visualize momentum and gravity. Science is cool!”  I then decided to make two harmonographs. This is my 2-pendulum harmonograph, her name is 2-pendi.

    Before I was introduced to the harmonograph, I struggled needlessly with my identity as a classically trained visual artist and a science lover (who shied away from anything ‘math-y’ from a young age). When I saw the harmonograph in motion this struggle dissipated, replaced with a feeling of ‘oneness’ with the world around me. Hippy dippy, I know, but I have no other way to describe the feeling.

    Harmonographic Design

    So with my two-cents about epiphanies, here’s the mission statement for the upcoming show at The Lab. Cheers and stayed tuned for more!


    “We are a collective of creative and progressive girls living in the Bay Area. We aim to illuminate emerging and underrepresented local artists in a one-night-only art experience at the Lab. Using the notion of epiphany as a starting point, we are asking artists to explore and collaborate.

    In addition to creating an alternative art event, our project aspires to challenge the political landscape of the art establishment. As an experimental art space, the Lab is essential to the realization of our project. Due to its position outside the conventional art institution it offers a platform for critical dialogue that questions norms and the commonplace status quo.

    For this project, we are calling on artists from diverse backgrounds and practices to translate their idea of epiphany. This experiment explores this singular moment where ideas and experiences from the past and present collide in an unexpected manner, to create a new understanding or significance. This moment brings information from the unknown into the known, making the invisible visible.

    Epiphany cannot be predicted or controlled: it is unknown whether this experiment will create a moment of epiphany or a persona of the word. Thus our project emphasizes interaction among the artists, art, and audience, encouraging new dialogues.”

  • 4 Universal Lessons from 30 Lil’ Old Lady Artists

    I find myself in a dimly lit wooden structure in the muddy fairgrounds of Red Bluff, California. About 30 older ladies (and two men) gather around a table, holding plates of chocolate cake and sipping hot coffee from small styrofoam cups. These women are part of the Red Bluff Art Association in Tehama county, a small rural area about two hours north of Sacramento. They are taking a break during an oil painting workshop with the talented and prolific, Judith Frost, a California-based landscape painter.

    In the studio with Judith Frost!

    As I listen to the conversations and questions about various oil painting tools and techniques (these ladies love talkin’ shop), someone sounds a cowbell to usher the ladies back into the workshop room where metal fold-out chairs are neatly arranged around Judith’s canvas and easel. I settle into my seat and take notes. This lady knows her stuff.

    Judith discusses her appreciation for light and how it serves as the cornerstone to all her work. She also demonstrates how to create a sky with a palette knife and the proper transparent blue and gray colors. The workshop concludes and I realize that this oil painting workshop could double for a workshop about life. What I mean is that many practices and core concepts in becoming a successful oil painter (hard work, experience, right tools) are universal to being a successful human being regardless of what cause or craft or life style you pursue.

    Four Samples of Judith Frost's Work

    1. Go with the FLOW (Shit happens)

    Life is weird. Unexpected events happen: some happy, some tragic. Over the course of the workshop, Judith told us that the majority of her art supplies were stolen from her car in San Jose. Why someone would do this is beyond me, however, it happened and now she had to deal with it. Judith’s lack of supplies forced her to use brushes and palettes she wouldn’t normally use, but what I truly appreciated was her willingness to go-with-the-flow and not ruminate about the actions of others.

    Shit happens: your tools get stolen, you don’t get your dream job, you are rejected in love. It is important to be aware that these are inevitable bumps in the road and that inherently, life changes. Also realize that you have the profound choice to either stop and cry in the mud OR pick yourself up and move forward. It is up to YOU to decide.

    Shit real.

    It took me years to realize this and from time to time, I still find myself slipping back in a hole of self-pity and regret. Now, however, I have the foresight and strength to claw my way out because I HAVE THE CHOICE.

    So, In addition to being weird and unexpected, life is transient. Shit happens. Just go with it. The choice is yours.

    2. Work, Work, Work

    Because it takes a lifetime of hard work, rejection and picking yourself back up to create something like this:

    The beautiful work by Judith Frost does not happen overnight.

    While speaking to our group about her oil painting practice, Judith revealed that she doesn’t usually lead demonstrations or workshops like these and she probably won’t again. She was very open about telling us that she doesn’t have free time beyond painting to teach. You gotta’ respect her honesty.

    And there’s a lot to be said about practice. Have you heard of the rule of 10,000 practice hours? Essentially, it has been theorized that what separates the pros from the amateurs is sheer man/woman hours. How much time are you willing to invest into your craft?

    According to Malcolm Gladwell in his book, Outliers, he examines through interviews and data analysis, why certain people and organizations achieve success far beyond their peers. So whether it’s the success of The Beatles or the launch of Microsoft, you must put in the hours.

    And I theorize that if you truly love your craft, it won’t be so hard to spend the time practicing.

    So you want to be successful? Grab your tools and start. You have 10,000 hours left to go.

    3. Pursue Knowledge Constantly

    During the course of the class, Judith generously gave us a a list of books she recommends for all oil painters to read:
    Sixty Minutes to Better Painting – Craig Nelson
    Alla Prima – Richard Schmidt
    Fill Your Oil Painting with Light & Color – Kevin MacPherson
    Composition of Outdoor Painting – Edgar Payne
    Carlson’s Guide to Landscape Painting – John Carlson
    Mastering Composition – Ian Roberts
    Sketching from Square One to Trafalgar Square – Robert E. Scott
    Landscape Painting – Inside & Out – Kevin MacPherson
    Landscape Painting – Mitchell Albala
    Perspective for Artists – Rex Vicat Cole

    Knowledge is power. However, gaining knowledge is also a never-ending process; it’s constant. You will never know everything, even in your particular field of knowledge.

    I usually maintain a cool head, but I get frustrated when people say ‘Oh, I already know how to do that’ or ‘I’ve already taken a class in that.’ Why?

    Because the space for knowledge is infinite and when you dismiss someone’s suggestion to teach you, you dismiss the chance to expand your knowledge. Here’s a graph to illustrate what I mean about the Universe of Knowledge:

    The Universe of What Can Be Known

    If this pie chart doesn’t make sense, then please watch my favorite scene from one of my favorite movies, Men In Black:

    ‘Imagine what you will know tomorrow.’ I love how Agent K keeps it real and real smart. Keep your minds and eyes open, you might learn something.

    4. Find your Community

    More than anything during the workshop with Judith Frost, I appreciated the warm community that the Red Bluff Art Association offered. Talent, practice and a thirst for knowledge mean very little when you don’t have a group of like-minded colleagues to commune with. We are social creatures after all.

    Sometimes when we are caught up in our projects or in our areas of study, it’s difficult to realize that there are other people doing the same exact thing! Finding a supportive community is important because it can open doors to growth and collaboration. Then we can make the really BIG things happen.

    I don’t believe in the myth about the self-made man or woman. I believe that the successes of one person is the culmination of a community of people helping that person attain success. Think about it. Even Frederick Douglass, who wrote the book Self-Made Men in 1872, can attribute his success to the help of various people throughout his life: Sophia Auld who secretly taught him the alphabet when he was twelve, Elizabeth Cady Stanton who pursued equality alongside Douglass, and Gerrit Smith who helped Douglass publish his anti-slavery publication in 1860.

    So whether it is pushing for social change or growing as an artist, you MUST find the people to not only help you grow but pursue those projects and causes that are important to you.

    The lovely ladies of the Red Bluff Art Association!

    Find the people who have the same interests as you! It might be as simple as joining a Meetup group or finding a local group like these ladies did for the Red Bluff Art Association. If you don’t find a group, then make one!

    Two heads are better than one, and more is even better!

    A big thank you to the lovely ladies in the Red Bluff Art Association and to Judith Frost for taking the time out of her busy painting schedule to teach us something. Keep smiling, keep pushin’.

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